maldita

im smiling, but there’s always pain in my eyes..

im laughing, but it seems like my soul is crying..

im always hoping eventhough my heart decided to stop believing..

i keep on trying, eventhough im slowly dying..

why do i keep on pretending that everything is fine, when actually its not?

why do i always have to put on my happy face, if in fact i wanna tie my neck with a lace?

why do i always hide behind my powerful brain, when in fact i wanna show the world that i am already emotionally drained?

i can explain different pathophysiology, but how come i still feel so dumb?

i have solved several equations, but how come i cant solve this puzzle in my mind?

Its such an irony!!

why i am dying to live while im fact im just living to die..